Life with Leukemia

What now?

In most instances, there is no “cure” for cancer.  If you are blessed to achieve remission and stay cancer free, you have hit a phenomenal milestone. Once you have hit this milestone, inevitably the next big question is “what now?” While my friends were starting families and getting promoted at work, I was fighting infections and learning to walk again. It seemed like so much of my life was passing me by as I fought to live. I only wanted to get back to the things I was focused on before I was ever diagnosed. The question I struggled with was, “How do you pick up the pieces of your life after cancer?”

In August 2014, I was blessed to marry the man who stuck with me through thick and thin. The next thing I had to focus on was getting my career back on track. When I was finally cleared to work again in late December 2014 almost two years had passed since my initial diagnosis. At this point, I had gotten married and moved to the opposite side of the country from where I worked prior to my diagnosis. I was faced with the harsh reality that I would have to start over again in my career – search for a job, build a network, interview and inevitably explain the gap in my resume.

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This process made me want to scream. After everything I went through, the last thing I wanted to do was work to put the pieces of my life back together in a completely new place. I truly had a case of the “I don’t feel like its”. My frustration was only compounded when I was met with a series of closed doors. I would interview, send applications, network, but nothing seemed to happen. One day I happened to be listening to a sermon by Joel Olsteen and I knew it was just for me. Here is a snippet.

Will you stay in faith while you wait for what God has in store for you? Don’t be discouraged by closed doors. They are just as important as open doors. He is a God of the exceedingly abundantly above all we can ask or think. Learn to trust Him despite how it looks to you. He has something better and He’s positioning you for greater. 

I am learning to trust in God’s timing. I believe this period is pushing me into my destiny. I don’t believe God would bring me through ALL only to leave me now. As a matter of fact, in Philippians 1:6 it says, “Being confident in this, He who has begun a good work in you will complete it.” God doesn’t do anything partially. In the Bible, when God restored Job, He gave him “double for his trouble”. The Bible doesn’t say that his restoration process happened overnight, but it did indeed happen. I want to encourage anyone who is struggling with God’s timing, or facing the daunting task of starting over, to remain patient and trust in God. God’s plan is working, even when we cannot see it.

MEL-STRONG!

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comment (3)

  1. Chavonne Taylor

    07 May 2015 - 8:30 pm

    Great word! God has not failed you yet. You have life. Love you girl!

  2. Rhodina McIntosh

    07 May 2015 - 10:59 pm

    Dear Mel….. Your words sooooo touched my spirit. One of the hardest lessons I have had to learn in my lifetime is patience. While our health issues are different, I struggled through several major health crises. It seemed as if every time I got back on my feet something else knocked me back down. BUT GOD ALLOWED ME TO GET BACK UP EVERY TIME! My spirit would whisper to me, “This too shall pass.” Over the years , it was revealed to me that my struggles gave others strength. You are right, Gid’s plan for our lives is mysterious but there IS A PLAN! As long as our faith in him remains strong, He has our backs. We never know how we touch the lives of others. Hang in there niece. THIS TOO SHALL PASS! I shall continue to keep you in prayer.

    Aunt Rhodina

  3. Christina Richardson

    08 May 2015 - 10:05 pm

    Beautiful and encouraging testimony cousin Melanie. Thank you for sharing and for your steadfastness through it all. May God continue to bless and keep you. I am excited to see what great things HE has in store for you and your wonderful husband.

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